Today I want to answer a question that Elena made me on FB,
“I was very curious on another aspect of life of a priestess: what is usually does not tell around: we friendly call it “scraping the wax from the altar cloths”, but what does priestessing and still continue to live life everyday, with work, the bills, the mortgage, laziness, family etc., mean? … ”
Being a priestess is an integral part of my life, not something detached from the daily work in the hospital, or from commitments with my family or my friends. Being a priestess is included in my every gesture, I try to do the best of my ability, often giving me a chance to fail, not to do things “right”.
In what I do well I have a huge ego, and I feel strong being the right person for that role, when I face things that do not know, the situation is quite different. Temperamentally I would be like, “let others do”, but one of the things I’ve learned in the last few years (and on which I am still working a lot) is the ability to ask for help from those who know more than me, without feeling belittled or ignorant. Stubborn and proud, for a person like me, is not always easy to admit you have a problem, but I have found that people who Goddess puts in our way are exactly those that “serve” you at that precise moment. Women and Men who have met in recent years have been ALL important for my personal growth, even those who have made me suffer.
Priestess is “you are”, not “you do” and that’s why the things of everyday life intersect and combine to afford following this Soul Path. An example that I always bring to people who ask me, as Elena, how did I do it all, is this: I have never been a good administrator of my personal money and, as my friends know, I’m often moneyless or almost, but one thing is certain, if a path is the path of your Soul, resources to follow it arrive, in one way or another.
and from here I answer the second part of the question,
“… Specifically, I wondered what it’s like three times a year (during Spirals training in Glastonbury) to drop everything, take the plane and leave, hours by plane, bus, nights sleeping in the airport, etc. with any weather or any problem you have at home. ”
For me, this wanted and still want to say going back to be real with myself, go back to the house of my Soul, is to be present and involved in something that is only mine, my personal relationship with the Goddess, in this case with the Lady of Avalon.
All the “troubles” of the long journey, it’s just one of many challenges that She presents you with to see if you ARE there or if you are pretending…
ahahahah No, I’m kidding …
It’s part of the journey itself. It’s the time that I have used each time to break away from the worries of the “Muggle” world and concentrate again on my own, and in the return to rework what I had learned before returning, changed. It’s certainly difficult, sometimes even tiring, to start months before worrying to organize the trip, and the flight and accommodation and what I eat and how I do with the money (which I don’t have), and I did not do well the assignements (because if you do the Training of the first two years by correspondence is not easy at all, but I’ll write about this another time). All those small / large resistances it was my lazy and fearful self, that put them in front of me every time, but every time I left I felt light, at the right place, with the right resources in my Priestess’ Pouch, not more and not less of those I needed at that time.
Small personal note: if you are going to follow the training in Glastonbury sooner or later, I advise you to put in your Priestess’ Pouch, a very good rain gear because, like good BP he always said, “There is no good or bad wheater, but only good or bad equipment.”. And this old adage I had proof while we walked our sacred pilgrimages around the isle of Avalon.
I hope I’ve answered you dear Elena … ❤
P.S. for the uninitiated B.P. is the affectionate diminutive that every Scout gives to Lord Baden Powell of Gilwell, founder of the Movement.